A New Day Has Come

A New Day Has Come

I was waiting for so long

For a miracle to come

Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear

So through darkness and good times

I knew I'd make it through

And the world I had it all

But I was waiting for you....

Hush now, I see a sky in the light

Oh it's almost blinding me

I can't believe I've been touched by an angel

With love

Let the rain come down

And wash away my tear

Let it fill my soul

And drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls

For a new sun

A new day has come

A new day has come

Where it was dark now there is light

Where there was pain, now there's joy

Where there was weakness I found my strength

All in the eyes of a boy

I'm alive!

"I get wings to fly.....I'm alive!
when you call on me,
when I hear you breathe
I get wings to fly, I'm alive
When you look at me, I can touch the sky
When you bless the day, I just drift away
All my worries die, I'm glad that I'm alive!"

Lost world

 

Lost

I have lost my value

I have lost my confidence

I have lost my perspective to life

looking to the mirror

like a stranger

I hate that face

 

struggling in my heart

like a clown hiding his sadness behind the mask

hiding myself in the corner

sadness, sorrow, melancholy conquer my heart

 

Starting to take off my mask

I have no strength to pretend anymore

pretending I am good, I am happy

In the contrary,

I am not!

Feeling sad, like a lost traveller

like a lost ship,

looking for a lighthouse

to find its direction

 

I am sailing back to the dark ages

I am not able to control it

like a swirl

swirling me into the past

 

requesting times to recover

I don’t know how long it needs

but...it will leave at the end .....

I dont know how long would it be

Life still goes on

It has lost control

What I can do its just follow what it wants

I realised isnt a good thing to be too kind

Starting to become sellfish, self-centered

Everyone is abusing it,

and I am harming them when I help them

What is the meaning of being helpful?

No, it doesn't has any value,

Yes, I am doing things that are not worth to do

no one is worth to help

people should be independent

they have to grown up

 

Yes, I am turning my perspective of life!

I need a long recover time,

I hope it is short,

May be in the new semester I am a new person!

The HEAVIEST Things in My Life!!!

I have overrate my capability of doing things, I hate myself....

Why sometimes I do not refuse people's request?why?

I do want to learn new things, when there is question I learn more things,

but, I feel like I'm carrying too much things on my shoulder, people are not supporting me,

Friends? What are fiends for? They do not help, they do not care, they leave me alone,

they...they...yes, indeed I enjoy loneliness, when they have questions,

friends suddenly pop out and ask" Hey! How to solve this problem?"

They can solve it but they dare not to solve it, is like wanted someone else to take responsible

for those question, when there is doubt, blame fall again on my shoudle!!! Why am I doing this?

Am I doing the proper things in my life? Am I? Why I have to do such things that makes

my life feel so bad? I'm feeling worst, is the worst situation that I have gone through!!! Is really

worst...