Lost world

 

Lost

I have lost my value

I have lost my confidence

I have lost my perspective to life

looking to the mirror

like a stranger

I hate that face

 

struggling in my heart

like a clown hiding his sadness behind the mask

hiding myself in the corner

sadness, sorrow, melancholy conquer my heart

 

Starting to take off my mask

I have no strength to pretend anymore

pretending I am good, I am happy

In the contrary,

I am not!

Feeling sad, like a lost traveller

like a lost ship,

looking for a lighthouse

to find its direction

 

I am sailing back to the dark ages

I am not able to control it

like a swirl

swirling me into the past

 

requesting times to recover

I don’t know how long it needs

but...it will leave at the end .....

I dont know how long would it be

Life still goes on

It has lost control

What I can do its just follow what it wants

I realised isnt a good thing to be too kind

Starting to become sellfish, self-centered

Everyone is abusing it,

and I am harming them when I help them

What is the meaning of being helpful?

No, it doesn't has any value,

Yes, I am doing things that are not worth to do

no one is worth to help

people should be independent

they have to grown up

 

Yes, I am turning my perspective of life!

I need a long recover time,

I hope it is short,

May be in the new semester I am a new person!